I woke up turned my head only to see my little cousins face telling me good morning. scared the crap out of me
a good friend of mine is going through a break up and it’s kind of sad/pathetic/horrible and you know normal break up stuff but he’s the type to try and rationalize things so that everything makes sense. he told me that heartbreaks happens just like happiness happens and it made me laugh as i think about all my past break ups and insane thoughts of wishing the girl who threw my heart on the ground, stomped on it, then proceeding to spat at it would just come back pick it up and make me whole again. i told him that you can’t use logic when it comes to these things and as pathetic as it sounds you have to be pathetic, you’re not going to get better over a day or two, a month or hopefully not a year. shit will not be okay until you accept it that she’s gone and that she’s moved on. i hate seeing him like this it’s as if i could feel his pain, i’m not a pro at breaking up or anything but i’ve had my fair share of heartaches and i still don’t know the best way to get over a break up…in the end he just wanted to get it all out and if he wants her back all i can do is support him and do what i can to help him make her feel the same way she used to.
it’s my half sisters birthday so i greeted her on facebook, she said “thanks poh” i think this is progress…well not really but the fact that i didn’t hesitate greeting her happy birthday is progress. honestly i wanna talk to her more but i don’t want to come off as a creep or have my bitter hate towards my father suddenly come up and say “hey you’re the reason my family is broken” or some dumb shit like that because it’s not fair to her and tho were not close or anything i wish we were on good terms enough to just talk about how her day or my day was.