since everyone thinks they know me so much let me tell you a little bit about my self. im currently pursuing a nursing career and people tend to not take me seriously when i say that but fuck it and fuck em. the one thing im good at is talking about myself and how great i am, yes i am cocky as fuck, confident i guess. when you seen the shit ive seen i guess you’d know. yes ive cheated on girls, quite plenty at that im not bragging im just saying. i always justify myself by saying that i cheat or play because my ex left me for my friend…im over it so idk why i excuse myself for that. when i was about ten my dad held a knife at me asking me if i think i could fight him as i was trying to leave my house. at the province back in the philippines i saw my yaya get raped and i couldnt do shit about it but tremble scared as fuck. i smoke, drink etc etc yeee im a badass and if you didnt catch my sarcasm then fuck you. blah i thought i was gonna be able to write a 10 page essay for jus10 but im already aggrevated as it is. my point is despite everything i never asked for anything all the toys shoes presents i never request any. what do i want for my birthday nothing i stopped celebrating it since i turned 13. so why am i currently bothered quite honestly i dont know maybe its the fact that i always think im right and i wont stop unless im disproven or actually prove that im right.
i dont say much, i dont talk much but when i do its always about me and thats mostly because i dont need to share the shit i hide so i come off as cocky because i talk about myself and how great i am ha. at least i dont have motives or hidden agenda. ehh truth hurts i guess and sometimes its hard for people to accept things that are so obvious infront of them. fuck i need a cig -.- i guess ill just go jog or play ball.
despite all of the things ive done to various girls and women; cheating, blaming them for bullshit. despite all of this, i try to respect them. yes ive cheated before but i never forced them to do anything they never wanted to do. i never used physical advantage over a girl. most importantly i dont throw the word “bitch” casualy or used it to refer to any female. if i do use it then i mustve been pushed that far ha. i may be cocky but i dont talk like “i get bitches” or talk like i dont have a mother saying “this bitch, that bitch” i steer away from that. guys who talk like that are the bitches. i guess thats why i get so defensive whenever i see a girl getting picked on for no apparent reason. especially from someone that doesnt know how to treat a girl…someone thats all talk but acts like a bitch when confrontation comes up, needing a whole team to surround him just to hide behind a girl… any man that does that doesnt deserve to be respected, let alone worth worrying about.