you sit there and you think to yourself, you wonder what progress you’ve made. all this time you think you’re doing it for the better and slightly you’ve been feeling better but you’re slowly realizing that you’re trapping yourself. you lost your focus along the way, you taught yourself to be distracted and shy away from reality. you got scared and decided to create things that wont bother you. you create problems for yourself that are almost impossible to solve on your own. you’re smarter than you think you are but you dumb down because you’re scared to take a step forward. you’re scared of the unknown and your narcissistic self can’t handle it. you prefer things  simple yet you complicate half the things that comes your way. you’re always on the move wanting more, you always want what you can’t have but when you do get it you get bored of it and lose interest. you need to refocus yourself and find what makes you tick. you need to start over. take away all the distractions and focus on yourself.